She made it to the keyboard!
I haven't written in a while, and it's only because after my business trip this weekend it took me a few days to regain the desire to live. You know how those one-day New York ventures can be: sucks all the will to breathe right out of you. This morning, however, i woke up without the immediate desire to cause myself physical harm, so things are looking up. I guess you could say that i've been a bit depressed about the whole being a colosal failure at my job thing. People say things like "it'll pass" and "you're not a colosal failure, you just look like one to everybody else" and other uplifting things, so that's nice of them.
Now for something NOT depressing: Exactly one month to the wedding! I wish i had a little bit longer, you know for the not eating thing to kick in, but on the other hand i'm super excited about seeing my friends, and seeing my family, and getting all partied-out. Most of all, i'm excited about finally marrying the greatest most wonderful man in the world. Katie Holmes, eat your heart out, i am so much more in love than you are.
I think i pictured this day marrying this person when i was no older than 12 years old. Except in my original fantasy he had longer bangs. And i was a bit thinnner.